I should just buy my own continent or something

Hi, everybody.

I'm just stopping by to briefly update you on the weight loss thing.

118 pounds so far.

It's going slowly lately, possibly because it's so COLD outside that I haven't been able to take any walks.
I know I could probably walk indoors at a store or something (we don't have any malls around here), but that would just feel weird. I can't stand having people look at me when I'm walking.
And I know that there are people in malls who, for some god-forsaken reason, actually sit around and do what they call "people-watching". I don't get it. I've heard people say it's fascinating and fun, but to me it just sounds awfully rude. I mean, would you like having someone stare at you and analyze you and make a mental list of all the ways in which you look weird or act weird or move weird?
I get the creeps just thinking about it.
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Condolences need slightly more ketchup

I forgot to update all of you on the weight loss thing.
I've lost 114 pounds so far, which might sound pretty good at first.
The problem is that I've been on a plateau for awhile, and the number seems to be stuck at 114.

I weigh once a month, so I'll keep you updated when the next one happens.

Send encouragement, condolences, cheeseburgers, or some combination thereof.
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Maybe they're thinking of my evil twin instead

I dunno how many of you are actually following this, but here's the next update.
I've lost 112 pounds now.

And ironically, I'm feeling more depressed because I STILL don't think I look any different.
If anything, I'm starting to feel that I look worse.
The mirror tells me I'm the same size I always was, if not bigger.
It makes no sense, but there ya go.

People everywhere are showering me with compliments, telling me what a huge difference they see.
I'm the only one who just doesn't see it.
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Perhaps I'll notice when I dissappear entirely

Weighed myself this morning.
I've lost 110 pounds now.

Hard to imagine that.

I couldn't lift 110 pounds if it was sitting in front of me, so how on earth was I able to do it when it was attached to me...??

Ironically, I still don't think I look any thinner than when I started.
Still waiting for that moment when my brain can see what's happening.
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A hundred and six

In case any of you were wondering, I've lost 106 pounds so far.
Despite losing over a hundred pounds, I STILL don't think I look much different.
People are telling me I do, but I just don't see it.
I wonder if I'll become like one of those anorexic types who still sees fat in the mirror even when everyone else is staring at her ribs poking out.
I'm a long way from visible ribs, but I still wonder.... how much longer will it take before I see a difference?

And now, for some creepy disturbing reason, I'm craving BBQ ribs.
(*awkward cough*)
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If I had a penny for every pound, I could buy a tiny cheeseburger

Wow.
Guess what!

Total weight lost so far: 100 lbs. (!!!)

A hundred!
I still can hardly believe it.

Everyone's telling me I look so different now, but the freaky thing is that when I look in the mirror, I still see the same person. I think I still look exactly the same size.
It's frustrating.
I'm happy that other people say they notice, but I'm eagerly awaiting the day when I notice, too. :)

I have more to lose, so the battle isn't over quite yet. Stay tuned!
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Update

Hi, everyone.
I haven't posted in awhile so I thought I'd just give a quick update on the weight loss thing.
I've lost 96 pounds so far. (!!)
I'm really hoping I can hit 100 by April.

Stay tuned!

Peeking up out of the snow

You'll all be glad to hear that I survived the winter storm.
(see previous post for a colorful radar image of it as it approached).

There are heaps of snow piled all along the street, and some of them are pretty darn huge.

But here I am, safe and sound.
Still sick with my flu/cold thing, but I'm hoping it won't last much longer.

Update on the weight loss thing: 93 pounds so far. (!!)
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The first post of the year

It's 1:40 in the morning on January first!
I still can't believe it's 2011 already.

As I type this, it's raining pretty hard outside, and it's 52 degrees. That's quite warm, compared to the usual temperature for a Michigan winter. It's an unusual warm spot, sandwiched in between the more typical stretches of sub-freezing temps. Sunday it's supposed to get back down into the teens and twenties.

Speaking of teens and twenties, those are years I'll never see again, since I'm going to be 41 in just a few days. Please politely ignore my screaming and sobbing.

I've lost 82 pounds so far.
Still going.

Not much else to say.

Bedtime.

I hope your year is a good one.
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Quick update

Update:
1. I've lost 70 pounds now.
2. I can wear smaller pants!
3. Twinkies are delicious.
4. You can have a pretty lengthy conversation with a Burger King cheeseburger, as long as you don't mind doing most of the talking.
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And now I have all these empty bottles....

It wasn't that long ago-- a year, maybe-- that I absolutely hated diet pop.
Diet Coke? Bleccchh. Diet Pepsi? Same thing.
Diet anything else? Gag me.
Now, although I still wouldn't categorize it as delicious, I find myself drinking it more often. In fact, I hardly ever have the "real" stuff anymore.
I used to call diet pop/soda a "chemical swamp" because it tasted so fake and was full of God-knows-how-many chemicals.
It'd be ironic if I was actually making myself less healthy by dumping all that junk in my system.
I can see the news now: "If only she'd stayed fat instead of drinking all that diet pop, she might have lived at least 20 more years..."

Oh, don't worry, I'm eating fiber and whole grains and fruits and all that other stuff too. Let's just say I have become intimately acquainted with the intestinal turmoil that can be wreaked by a big bowl of Kellogg's All-Bran.

So far I've lost 66 pounds.
That's more than what my grandmother weighs. (!!!)
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Slowly Shrinking

If you've seen me in person lately, you know I've lost a bit of weight.
Over 57 pounds so far. (!!)
I started back in December.
I make sure to eat tons of fiber, whole grains, multi-grains, and enough water to drown a moose every day.
I also drink a lot of herbal tea, which means I probably pee even more than the moose I symbolically drowned.

I haven't "given up" anything, because I think it's a mistake to tell yourself you "can't have" something.
Therefore, when I feel like it, I've eaten chocolate, bacon double cheeseburgers, Ben & Jerry's ice cream, cookies, and pepperoni pizza. I think all those things are absolutely perfectly fine and guilt-free when enjoyed in a reasonable way. There's no such thing as a "bad" food.

I've also enjoyed salads, veggie burgers, fresh fruits, and whole grain breads. I'm learning to love new things!

If there's one thing I've discovered, it's that no one knows exactly what works for me personally-- except myself.
Well-meaning people are sometimes quick to give "advice", but it's clear that they don't necessarily understand my particular needs. Even if they've lost significant amounts of weight themselves, the fact remains that different things work for different people.

Most of the time I just try to keep a reasonable outlook about the bigger picture.
It's harder than it sounds sometimes.
But for the most part, it's working.
I'm glad.
I still have a long way to go, and I just wanted to share my current success with you. :)
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